smile-dat-brightens-up-ur-dae..

It's the end

2012-01-15T10:47:00.001+08:00

Past tense, present tense n future tense.. Don't worry, i know exactly where I stand.. I'm glad yest went quite smoothly although maybe there was some moments of unhappiness.. But it turned out pretty well, n tgt with the rest, we've really tried our best(:

Hopefully my emotions yest wasn't that obvious for others to notice.. Alrdy tried hard to suppress esp coming to the end of the whole thing.. Would probably ended up breaking down if not for Sam accompanying me to walk away.. Honestly, it was too much for me to take.. I just don't feel comfortable, not needed n totally just a hindrance.. Oh well, maybe I'm too sensitive, but I guess I've alrdy reached my limits..

Really have to thank Samantha n Wen Li for being by my side the whole time yest or else I really dunno what wld have happened to me.. Thanks for listening to me the whole time from that place, till on the cab n then to ur house.. N ching fang too, though u didn't know what to do to help, but I really appreciate ur concern(:

I really broke down after which, letting it all out at the end of the entire thing.. I believe I've done all that is need to be done, a proper closure.. Time to close this chapter n move on to the next chapter of my life.. it's really time for me to walk off.. 07/07/12 the day(:

不想再这样子了,我累了,必须走了..

2012-01-09T10:05:00.001+08:00

Haha with the help of fang, I've set a deadline for myself.. 7th July! But I kinda think 6mths is too long.. But then again, it's not as easy as I think it is.. So perhaps, it wld be just right.. Beginning in 5 days time(: jiayou Jocelyn see!

31 Dec 2011- Last day of 2011

2011-12-31T01:14:00.001+08:00

Today's the last day of the year 2011!

Let me do a brief review about the year..

Definitely, It has been an eventful year.. Began the yr with final phase of poly life, then comes graduation.. Had my share of a long holidays.. Following which, I'm now majoring in a degree in accounting n finance.. Moving on from a phase of life to another is definitely a joy in my life..

Apart from this, I was actually quite unhappy 1/2 months back due to some family matter.. Couldn't really tell anyone, but I did let it out.. Am really thankful for my family who braved it thru tgt n also those who have actually consoled n cheered me up.. Really hope things will turn for the better in the year to come..

I really hope I will find a solution to the problem that has been bothering me the past mths or so.. Be it a good or bad outcome, I will learn to accept it n give my blessings to whatever may happen..

Another incident has also make me reflect on the importance of treasuring the people ard me.. Although I can't do much to help that friend of mine, but I really hope that everything will be well for her :D hurts us all to see her this way.. Hope you get well soon my dear! :D

Last but not the least, I'm really really thankful for my family, dearest besties n my beloved friends who made my 2011 so fulfilling! I love you all! N will definitely treasure all of u even more in the yrs to come! <3

Nts: Live life with no regrets!

WISHING ALL OF U A EVEN BETTER YEAR AHEAD! ~HAPPY 2012!~

我無所謂

2011-12-30T01:50:00.001+08:00

Whenever I hear these 4 words: 我無所謂, I will think of this song! Damn old school, but it's catchy n nice! Enjoyyyy! :D

天天都有落葉　特別是今夜
當沙沙的風吹　每一片葉　掉一滴淚
夜夜有人心碎　他們相信誰
當愛被解了約　作何感覺

莫非無尤也無悔　依舊癡癡收藏落葉
傻的心　傻到哭　也流不出淚

我無所謂　我冷若冰　淡若水
我不為夢　留一點空　侵掠我緊閉心扉
當感情是唯一解不開的結　而人　愛聽誰傷了誰

我願是風中　飄然輕落的葉

我無所謂　我傷過心　掉過淚
我只在乎　愛本無罪　何苦要陷入重圍

當世界被感情蒙上一層灰　而我　寧願是最後的落葉

2011-12-28T23:34:00.001+08:00

李玟- 往日情

讓我慢慢忘記你像朝露蒸發陽光底
乾乾淨淨的心情從此不再背負思念荊棘
記憶它屬於生命　
誰能輕易抹去我只能全部都藏匿

腦海裡全是過往情景我該如何整理真教人力不從心
這份情感如何還給你　
誰能夠代替你　
我畢竟已付出真情

讓我慢慢忘記你像朝露蒸發陽光底
乾乾淨淨的心情從此不再背負思念荊棘
記憶它屬於生命　
誰能輕易抹去我只能全部都藏匿

腦海裡全是過往情景我該如何整理真教人力不從心
這份情感如何還給你　
誰能夠代替你　
我畢竟已付出真情

為什麼世界好不公平
先讓我們相遇又經歷太多風雨
午夜夢裡常常回到往昔
夢醒難忍傷心因為當時有你

你要幸福 <3

2011-12-28T00:09:00.001+08:00

还是要幸福

不確定就別親吻感情很容易毀了一個人
一個人若不夠狠愛淡了不離不棄多殘忍

你留下來的垃圾我一天一天總會丟完的
我甚至真心真意的祝福永恆在你的身上先發生

你還是要幸福你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕別跟著我銘心刻骨

你還是要幸福我才能確定我還得很清楚
確定自己再也不會佔據你的篇幅
明天開始這一切都結束

還我鑰匙的備份我覺得再見可以很單純
我甚至真心真意的祝福永恆在你的身上先發生

你還是要幸福你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕別跟著我銘心刻骨

你還是要幸福我才能確定我還得很清楚
確定自己再也不會佔據你的篇幅
明天開始這一切都結束

你還是要幸福你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕別跟著我銘心刻骨

你如果很幸福半夜的簡訊我就無需回覆
因為你的悲喜已經有了容身之處我也能有最純粹的孤獨

Moment of shock

2011-12-26T10:46:00.001+08:00

Haha I seriously tot probably no one or maybe only one/two wld chance upon this.. But oh well, I got a shock when my friend actually texted me aft reading my blog.. Was literally in a state of shock.. Haha but I'm pretty sure about what I'm gonna do alrdy after yest.. So no worries people! :D

MERRY XMAS!

2011-12-25T10:57:00.001+08:00

24th Dec: Had fun at fang's house yest! Playing a game called "kings" if I didn't rmb wrongly.. was quite interesting.. Lols! Had our dinner using gongcha's straw as chopsticks! N then Xmas gift exchange n log cake after which.. Left ard 2 plus am.. Pretty enjoyable Xmas spent! :D

25th Dec: Heading out with Sec sch clique +hmbb later to minds cafe then high tea! Another gift exchange happening later! Nevertheless, hope everyone have a joyous Christmas, n simply enjoy the holidays! :D

Sidetrack: Otw back home, I was so tempted to ask a question.. But didn't in the end.. Guess I will not even think bout asking anymore..Can't let anything bad happen before the deadline.. What supposed to come, will come.. But if it isn't meant to be, all I can do is pick myself up n move on.. It's never easy to do so, but if knowing that it is only my wishful thinking n this is getting no where, what's the point of holding on? Getting ready to say bye, but definitely with a smile! (:

暧昧

2011-12-21T01:29:00.001+08:00

Dunno why, but am suddenly reminded of this song..

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里

Quote:
-"你知道没有可能，但又舍不得放手"
-"暧昧是有进一步的冲动，却没有进一步的勇气"

I need time..

2011-12-19T01:33:00.001+08:00

I am pretty sure that whatever's happening now is getting me no where.. Im also pretty sure that I'm the only one holding on to it now at this point of time, totally one sided..

But it's always easier said than done.. I have to drift apart, move away from this situation, but I really need time to do so.. It's just not easy to do so, 我是个人, 我的心是肉做的啊.. There are bound to be a tinge of feelings still lingering here n there.. I need some time from now on to reflect, think thru and eventually, move on..

A month from now will be the time that I am gonna walk away, quietly n slowly..

The following para of song really depicts what I'm kinda in now..

想要放放不掉
泪在飘
你看看你看看不到
我假装过去不重要
却发现自己办不到

说了再见
才发现再也见不到...

:D

2011-11-29T22:20:00.001+08:00

回想过去,我还真的有那么一点的佩服我自己.. (High tolerance level!) Maybe it's the trust that I had that allowed me to go on without doubting bah.. Unless its really over my limits.. Haha Okayokay, this is indeed a very random thought..

The difference of first love & a first boyfriend /girlfriend

2011-11-14T23:26:00.001+08:00

A lot, actually. A first boyfriend/girlfriend was just the first relationship you had. You thought it was real but it really isn’t. When you’re on your first relationship, you don’t know the difference between love, admiration and infatuation. It is when you get you’re first love when you think you’re stupid. You thought you fell in love with the person you had a relationship with in the past but you weren’t, because when your first love comes, that’s when you know what love really is. You may not notice it while you still have them but it really hits you when you lose them. It hits you that you really love them because losing them was the worst pain you could ever go through. The most painful ever and you think that you’ll never get that hurt ever again. You can always get back up because you know life goes on but a part of you will always be with them. That part will stay, no matter what. Once you loved someone, it is impossible to unlove them no matter what they did. You, yourself, don’t even know why you can’t let go. You’ve been hurt and you know it, yet, you just keep crawling back to them. You know it, yourself, that you can always love someone again but it will never be the same way you loved your first love. Because your first love taught you how to love. Loving someone again would always remind you of your first love, the person who taught you how. And each and every time you love again, it reminds you of them, you think if where on Earth they are and who they are with. And it strucks you again, how hurt you’ve been. You just wished you could’ve forgotten all the memories but you can’t because as much as it hurts, you’ve never been as happy as you were when you had them by your side. Time after time, you still think of what you might’ve been if you were still with them. You figure out things happen for a reason but you never really figured out why. And even if months past, you still think of the life you had together and still cry, knowing that they’re still the one for you but they don’t know it. Knowing that you’d give your life, even if it means you being dead, just to be with them again.

Quoted from: "Just'CauseI♥Him" tumblr

phew(:

2011-11-11T00:15:00.001+08:00

Have never felt this disappointed before today but neither have I felt this determined before.. It's like i finally understood what time can actually do to us, it brings about changes that's for sure.. I've never tot that i will actually feel so disappointed, or that you can actually bring bout such great disappointment to me.. Do you know that sometimes all i really need is some respect when im ard u? That type of basic respect.. But perhaps it's really a good thing, kinda helping me to let go n put a full stop to all this instead of allowing it to remain a continuation.. But this will definitely not change our friendship that has been forged deep btwn us..

*phew* all I need was to vomit all these out, feeling so much better now! To everyone/anyone who still happen to come across this post/blog, I'm alright, so pls do not ask me anything.. Thanks! (:

2011-09-17T00:20:00.001+08:00

Affected? Bothered? Weird unexplainable feeling.. I ain't supposed to be feeling this way, am I?

Addicted to this old song(:

2011-08-19T23:52:00.001+08:00

把手放了我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人
我也许不会在撑真的够了
能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了
能不能不要开灯
我们的爱跟着你写的剧本
出现了越来越多的角色
我是你什么人
如果不是情人
是不是不要再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚
你对我多好
多温柔多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我
想着我只有我
爱本来就该独一无二
为你伤心多一点少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得
世界上那么多人
只有我一个人
能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了

N I had a great day today, though it wasn't long, but am thankful for the thoughts put in, n the necklace's beautiful! Thank youuuu! :D

2011-08-15T00:37:00.001+08:00

:D no longer thinking randomly! :D

2011-08-09T20:40:00.001+08:00

Am currently super duper uper confused.. Am not sure if those are signals or hints or am I just thinking too must.. Am indeed very confused now but well shall not keep thinking unless it comes right smack in my face.. Smilez everyone! :D

Uh huh?

2011-05-12T08:07:00.000+08:00

Dunno what exactly am I feeling but well just stay away from me.. It's too complicated for me to even understand.. )):

2011-04-08T02:02:00.001+08:00

确实了! 放弃吧你这个大笨蛋! But it does hurts ):

No idea

2011-04-07T12:39:00.001+08:00

I've absolutely no idea if what I interpreted is correct, but my 6th sense tells me so.. Plus the look on ur face says so.. So I guess it's really time to move on, 到此为止吧!

Can't stop myself from thinking

2011-04-05T01:07:00.001+08:00

I am so curious.. Just can't stop myself from thinking! ): well have a headache now, guess I shall just go to bed n slp! Hopefully that will stop the things going in my head! Nights world!

Hmm..

2011-03-18T00:20:00.001+08:00

I think well, it's over already! Prepared to walk out of it n convince myself that it's over unless there's miracle? Hahaha! It wouldn't happen de!
Well so I suppose this spells H-I-S-T-O-R-Y !
Embrace urself Jocelyn See! :D

I still can't):

2011-03-11T17:18:00.001+08:00

我始总戒不掉你的味道! ): maybe it will take the same amount of time, or might take even longer.. I can only wait for time to 把一切给冲淡吧..

Stop thinking so much!

2011-03-10T22:10:00.001+08:00

Yup I shld really stop myself from thinking or else even if it's not true, all this thinking will make me think otherwise, n dig a hole for me to fall into it.. By then, no one will know how I feel n I will be just suffering in silence looking at what's happening ard u.. ):

Maybe..

2011-03-02T16:57:00.001+08:00

Maybe a part of me still hasn't let go.. Have yet to let go of u.. But I know you will always be a part of me.. My wonderful memories(: but I will let it be n keep it to myself cos I am really afraid, afraid of losing u even as a friend.. If things can just remain like this, I am alr v.contented(:

Let it be a secret bahhh!

2011-02-19T23:47:00.001+08:00

始终还是你最了解我

不想让你知道

2011-02-13T11:46:00.001+08:00

忽然不想让你知道在我心中你多重要

忽然不想让你知道你的爱我已经戒不掉

Awesome feb meet up!

2011-02-12T23:14:00.001+08:00

Meeting my dearest sec sch mates tmr! A zhabalang meet up to celebrate v.day, feb babies bday n also Chinese new yr! Looking forward as it will be a break from mugging n the upcoming papers! (:

P.S. I wanna go 河畔! Anyone?

2011-02-10T23:34:00.002+08:00

Actually is cos of u.. I am actually affected by things that's happening ard u.. 但我不想让任何人知道.. Especially u..

2010-12-22T15:28:00.000+08:00

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱 就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到快疯掉 死不了就还好

2010-09-24T15:02:00.002+08:00

my house will be undergoing renovation soon so these few days have been packing up days! Was packing this cupboards that are filled with presents, notes n letter.. were reading thru them n i felt so touched that i cried.. felt so fortunate recalling those wonderful stuffs that have happened in my life n some that are still happening.. well esp the stuffs written in the notebook that i have forgotten. tears flowed down instantly.. Everything makes me realize how time passes n i have grown up.. Now i can truly say it: I was young once! :D hahaha

2010-08-28T11:17:00.002+08:00

Frankly speaking, i was really confused with my feelings previously.. I guess this is normal bahh cos considering the fact that we once had a past, so it seems a little unclear.. I've finally figured it out n i am really glad that we have made it clear now.. At least i wldnt have the tedency to think so much anymore n can really enjoy this friendship happily(: I am really afraid that after clarifying, things will change.. But i really hope it wldnt change anything bcos the time spend with/ard him was really very nice.. Maybe cos we know each other v.well, so its really comfortable having him as my company.. Don't have to feel sorry or what bcos You are a really nice person!! SMILEZ!! (:

2010-08-22T23:59:00.001+08:00

BAHHHHH!! I am feeling so bad!! So terrible!! I am not gonna do it agn, i promise myself!! Ahhh.. now better le.. :D

2010-08-21T22:58:00.002+08:00

This post is dedicated to my dear friends & family who gave me presents, wished me HPBD on the day itself or belated!! You guys are all loved! Really appreciate all of these n love the stuffs n wishes i've received! THANKYOU VERY MUCH!! :D

2010-08-20T00:06:00.002+08:00

OMG! i think i really really do feel smthg.. is this good or bad?! i am so confused! someone help me pls..

2010-08-16T14:41:00.004+08:00

I've told myself, this is gonna be the final time.. I think it's really time to say goodbye.. SAYONARA! (:

2010-08-12T23:49:00.002+08:00

:D my darlings got me a dress that i wanted yest(: thank you very much darlings! after a whole day of shopping, i found more stuffs that i like but i didnt get yet.. Shall work hard to save for it(: GAMBATTE!!

*sometimes i really have no idea what exactly is going on, but i've decided to go along with whatever comes my way(: SMILEZ

2010-08-02T00:34:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!! (: I am 19 alr.. last yr before i reach the digit that starts with 2! OMG.. seems old isnt it! I wish that i can remain the cheerful positive me even as i grow older n face more nonsense! Thanks everyone who have wished me happy birthday!! Love all of you!! It's all cos of you, my world brightens up!! (:

2010-08-01T12:23:00.000+08:00

after reading a post, i've decided to use the same trick.. i doubt anyone will read this post n that's what this is meant to be(: i've been wondering all this while.. i have once tot that everything was gone.. a long time ago.. but since a few mths ago, things started to reappear.. all along i think i can handle, n i think i did managed to, even up till now.. but sometimes i cant help but to think.. is it possible for us? have this came across to ur mind? it seems possible yet impossible, bcos if things were to happen, it wld have alr happened right? well i think if u were keen, u wld have alr took actions.. maybe i am ignorant, maybe i am dumb, but i really cant tell.. so as to not complicate myself, i have ignored behaviours or actions that ppl told me were big hints.. bcos i am unsure n i dun wanna make a fool of myself.. unless i hear it from u, or else, i will just let things remain the way it is now.. at least it seems alright for both u n me..

No matter what is to happen, i will remain postive n cheerful, the way i used to be n have always been(:

2010-07-12T12:42:00.002+08:00

I am confused, i am lost.. I realized that those matters that have been accumulating is affecting me way beyond what i've imagined.. Guess i shldnt even have landed myself in this state, n perhaps it's time to wake up.. Be Strong Jocelyn See(:

2010-07-11T21:24:00.003+08:00

For the issue that have been troubling me whole night, i've decided to not bother n see how it goes.. As for the other matter, i think i am quite right about it, so i guess everything's coming to an end.. TROUBLE-FREE i shall aim to be(:

2010-07-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

ah..... stupid.. the Justin bieber's BABY song has been in my head since like morning!! Part of the lyrics goes ike this:

BABY
I know you love me, I know you care
Just shout whatever & i'll be there
You want my love, you want my heart
And we'll nvr ever ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl quit playing
We're just friends, what are you saying
Said there's another, look right into my eyes

Baby baby baby ohhh
Like Baby Baby baby nooo
Like Baby baby baby ohhh
I thought you'll always be mine mine

I shld stop listening to it & get it out of my head, but it's freaking addictive.

Another 2 songs that i keep listening to is 两个人的荒岛 & 你不会.. NICE SONGS(:
Stress lvl's going up.. But music keeps my life entertained, without which i think i will go crazy with the amt of work on hand.. I know i've to hang in there! JIA YOU JOCELYN SEE!! :D

2010-07-08T23:58:00.001+08:00

Although many ppl told me the same possibility, i still dont believe n i dont think so! am i that dumb to not be able to tell? nth points to that la.. dun think too much ppl.. hahaha

2010-06-29T22:31:00.004+08:00

holidays ended): this means that i have lesser time with my besties n my bitches! n this term is packed with projs n CAs.. From the 1st day of class, we were alr told.. How nice is that? I will try to hang in there! (: dont worry my darlings, i am sure of what i am doing n wldnt be affected by things which arent even true(: Hope friday comes quick n stay there! (i am dreaming alr)

NIGHTSSSSS!! (:

2010-06-21T00:02:00.003+08:00

Have no idea why, but my gastric problems reappeared again.. It's not like i didnt eat, but sometimes just exceeding the time to eat by like half an hr wld cause me to hurt real bad.. Things are getting weirder, but it's okay, i noe i can survive the pain(: long week ahead plus last week of holidays.. But i will make the most out of it(: shall head to bed! GD NIGHT & SWEETIE DREAMZ!! (:

2010-06-18T13:34:00.002+08:00

Went to sentosa yest, didnt cycle in the end, went tanning n swimming.. OMG it hurs so bad when bathing, perhaps i got a burn.. Dinner time, we practically walked ard vivo n in the end we decided to head to MS for cafe cartel.. Haha.. All thanks to nigel who mentioned Cafe Cartel and all of us had the cravings for it.. Ate till like 10 then headed to my house for stayover.. All in all, it was a fun day out(: (hehe.. we all told wenli, nigel passed with flying colours..Well Done!)
Heading to work soon, ciaos!):

*Sometimes i have no idea what i am doing, well, just let nature takes its course(:

2010-06-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

MSTs over n its holidays (super long since i had 1)! but it just doesn't seem like it.. All we dun hv to do is to nt go sch for 10days but we still have like a whole lot of things to complete..Hmm shall try to make the most out of it(:

Went out on sat with besties n 2 other "new friend" People who were there will get what i mean(: it was pretty awkward initially, or shld i put it that it was awkward like more than half the time.. it was only when we were @ BK then things start to get a little better.. Didnt tot that such a outing wld hv occurred among us but well, it just adds to another kind of situation that we faced tgt.. Had quite alot of fun minus-ing off the weird situations.. At least it was time well-spent with besties..

Few of us stayed for dinner n then went to chat @ my hse till near 2am.. Realized how long it had been since we had a gathering that all were present.. Once in awhile, it just feels really nice and it's really missed.. These were the good-old-days(:

* Lack of slp! Gd Night People!! (:

2010-05-31T09:40:00.002+08:00

Sometimes things that people say are so damn contradicting! Can you be sure of what u want to do/ask before u say it out? After you say smthg n u do smthg else, what's the point of saying it then? We will just think u r contradicting! Please get this fact: If you want ppl to respect u, u have to first respect urself!

*Ahhh.. Feel so much better now(=

2010-05-22T19:41:00.002+08:00

Long long time since i have been blogging. Dont really have the time to anymore. Although current sem yr 3 timetable's gd but stress are building up too. Glad i still have family n friends ard me to get me thru this. I am working hard to swim out of this "stressful sea" too! @ least i've survived 5 weeks! few more weeks to holidays! can't wait.. I hvnt been hving holidays since zilllion yrs ago! hahaha.. For ppl who have heard my complaints or know what i am feeling right now, i am MUCH BETTER alr! (= Thanks for listening! Love all of u! I know i will be able to get through this n aft this i will be stronger! JIA YOU to everyone who's facing the same situation. That's all for now! (=

2010-03-05T23:28:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since i have updated.. Cos i was busy studying for exams! With the end of exams, it marks the end of yr 2.. N @ the same time, beginning of attachments.. My this holiday is so no life man.. Opps.. to correct.. I dont even have holidays this time round.. Hopefully all will be fine! Looking forward to trying different and new things.. Good luck to everyone who's going for attachments and myself too! hahaha.. Gambatte!! (=

2010-02-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHAT!!? PROJECTS- REPORT & PRESENTATIONS ARE FINALLY OVER!! This also marks the end of projects for YEAR 2!! Can;t believe i am moving on to yr3 alr.. In poly, time just flew by so quickly.. Guess this is bcos of the heavy workload.. haha.. EXAMS would be next but BEFORE that, i will enjoy my CNY to the fullest and make good use of this short break to rest..

P.S. I hv no holidays due to exams, itp etc! This is rubbish! I need a long break!

Sayonara people! I need to have my precious 8 hrs of sleep alr! GOOD NIGHT (=

2010-01-20T22:39:00.002+08:00

SO TIRED!! I am sure i can say that for many people now, esp for those who are in poly.. There are like endless reports to submitted n endless presentations to prepare for.. Staying up late in the night or waking u early in the morning to try to do as many stuffs as possible.. And there's a FM test to study for also! This is really a time for me to learn how to handle all these stress! GAMBATTE JOCEYN SEE!! alright i know i can survive all these, shall go to study FM now.. Jia you everyone!! (=

2010-01-01T22:50:00.002+08:00

IT's 2010!! HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!! HOPE THIS YEAR WOULD BE A BETTER YEAR FOR EVERYONE!! (=

2009-12-19T22:06:00.002+08:00

im feeling so confused now.. is that feeling true?? haha.. but anyway.. after a few heart to heart talk with the girls n jmon, im was surprise and glad to know i have sorted out everything within! my dear friends, you all do not have to worry bout me anymore(= This hols is well spent with my loved ones n friends.. I love what i have now, every single one who's around me, i would treasure them! (=

2009-11-24T22:43:00.002+08:00

There is no need for any explanation if i know that i havent done anything agst my conscience.. People who really know me would understand.. Hvnt felt this relieve for quite awhile, for ppl who cares for me, im really much better now.. Thanks! (=

2009-11-06T23:54:00.004+08:00

Another week have pass! All the projs n stuffs are flowing in already.. I've got to work hard!! Had work today.. Dunno why... Today felt exceptionally tired, my eyes was like about to close anytime but i survived! Met fang n keh lim after work.. Had aglio for dinner.. Hahaha.. i am amaze at how i can nvr get sick of it! Went shop ard after that n talk loads of crap.. Haha esp all the boomz, shingz, coloured snails and "chu ru" (Ching fang hor!).. Miss how i can never stop laughing with the girls.. I laughed lkike mad again today, n they nvr fail to make me tear! Can't wait for the next meetup! okie.. too tired alr.. Getting used to sch life alr.. Finally after 3 whole weeks n actualli come to think of it, my timetable is great! At least there arent freaking 3 hrs break alr.. That's all for today! Gd nite peeps! (=

P.S : 只要看得开，心情也会开朗多的！

2009-10-31T14:19:00.003+08:00

Chosen not to hate or blame.. I can forgive but not believe anymore.. Yes, forget is the word for it now..

2009-10-30T23:41:00.003+08:00

Many things that have happen over these few mths has made me learn n seen through alot.. The past seems so insignificant, it has been forgotten.. Though i was left with alot of unanswered questions, but i know the answers to it aren't important anymore.. I won't bother to find out and i dun wanna know it either.. I've chosen not to blame, not to hate cause it's just making myself suffer in another way, plus it's pointless.. I am not gonna shed another tear, it's just not worth it.. I will leave the rest to time..

2009-10-29T23:14:00.002+08:00

多少個秋　多少個冬
我幾乎快要被治癒好

但還是會只因為一個重覆的話題
就無心自擾

也曾想過　若真遇見
我們應該如何是好

我想我還是會還站在某一個街角
不讓你看到

只因為我不想打擾
只因為怕你解釋不了
只因為現在你的眼睛裡
她比我還重要

我只好假裝我看不到
看不到你和她在對街擁抱
你的快樂　我可以感受得到
這樣的見面方式對誰都好

我只好假裝我聽不到
聽不到別人口中的她好不好
再不想問　也不想被通知到
反正你的世界我管不了

若不想問　若不想被通知到
就把祝福　留在街角

Another one of the song i got addicted to.. Love the tune n how the whole song goes.. (=

2009-10-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

2nd week of sch alr! Felt so no life last week.. Mon-Fri schooling, Fri and sat working.. Sunday met kehlim to study! haha.. but this also shows that im guai! Working agn this coming fri till 8.. Sianz.. Doubt tish wld be free for dinner, so shall eat on my own.. I hate tuesdays, require way to much attention and brain cells.. hopefully im not goin to fall aslp tmr(= gd nite ppl! (=

2009-10-22T23:04:00.002+08:00

School just started for 4days n im tired alr.. Guess what im still in hols mood n i reali cant adapt to slping earlier.. I have been slping way past 12 everyday even though there's classes at 8am.. I just cant help it.. haha.. guess this is the reason why im having headaches sometimes.. I am gonna try to slp earlier, i am.. haha.. besides headaches, gastric pain are nt letting me off as well.. haha..i guess is that i just dun feel hungry.. not that i dun eat on time.. but i dunno why too.. okay! no worries! im gonna take care of my health! Eat right, slp right! Everyone shld do that too.. I will try to slp earlier today! Gd nite ppl! (=

2009-10-22T00:05:00.006+08:00

I've made a promise to myself n i am going to keep it.. I have thought it thru carefully, i know exactly what to do.. Yes.. It's to move on! I noe i will be able to do it.. Thanks for all the concerns! Love you guys! (=

2009-10-20T00:24:00.003+08:00

难过的左心房渐渐冷却
原来是晴天变成雨天
爱走了多远遗留在昨天
辛酸只能强忍住不被发现

还记得那天你穿的球鞋
你最宝贝的黑白相间
我们肩并肩走不到明天
终于我了解爱有期限

也许放开后我才学会
两颗心不一定到永远
口袋里还收藏着那些密语甜言当作纪念

手中握住了幸福画面美好的总还值得怀念
就算你离我越来越远
再看不见我的转变

我微笑着和你拥抱道别
却模糊了最后一句再见

I currently addicted to older songs.. haha..weird!

2009-10-16T23:06:00.002+08:00

Wed was a long long day man! Ended at 10.30pm on that day.. So tired.. Luckily thurs started work at 1pm! Thurs is a meet up day man, morning with tish n aft work i met kehlim n chingfang.. Had dinner @ kopitiam then shopped @ forever21.. We gt a handband each since it comes in a bundle of 3.. Bussed home at ard 10plus! A normal meet up for breakfast or dinner is a really gd way to catch up with friends, we shld do it more often! haha..
TODAY- so called last day of work for this hols.. but actualli i might still go back n work on fridays since my sch end at 12pm.. This coming fri alr cfm going back le.. Supposed to be happy since i gt no work alr, but still feel like working once in a while.. Hopefully most of the fri they will need me.. Crap.. Sch's starting in 3 days time n im still not in the mood for it.. It's realli time to wake up alr jocelyn see!! haha..

2009-10-12T23:16:00.003+08:00

Updates updates!!
Yeah!! Managed to keep my promise of running at least once a week! haha..
Fri- Had major stomachache, cramps plus normal tummyache.. The combination of it all made me felt like im gonna faint due to the pain for the 1st time.. Luckily i managed to withstand it from rubbing some ointment.. haha.. Work started at 12 n ended at 8.. Off to celebrate my uncle's bdae aft that..
Sat- Work again from 8-12, quite short but i was damn slpy cos i slept v.late.. N my new tv arrive, do not have to wait for like 10 mins before i can watch or hear sound alr.. Met in the nite to celebrate jmon's bdae, but only tish sam n i cld make it.. Met sam 1st at tiong to print photo, n it was there whr my shoe broke! gt a new pair of heels which i reali like but the whole incident of shoe spoiling and buying shoe was just super pai seh.. sam will noe what i mean.. haha.. Gt the stuffs from tish n then started decorating n wrapping.. Anyway.. he was so unobservant.. we did so many things like secretly n he didnt realise.. Apology for being so last min but we alr gt the stuffs long ago, just didnt had the time to do it tgt..

Sun- Felt that the celebration yest was terrible so on sun night, we met at his house bus stop b4 heading to his house to give him a surprise.. We had to get pass this gate b4 reaching his house eventually, but we didnt hv the key or any way to get it.. But luckily at that time, a car came out n we managed to sneak it.. We seriously looked like some suspicious character la.. His house is on the 1st floor so we had to sneak slowly outside the window.. To get his attention, we threw pieces of ppr into his window.. The whole situation was so dumb but aft seeing his dumbfounded face, it was all worth it.. The sad thing is that we didnt manage to take photo of that classic look of his but at least we achieved our aim! haha..

Mon- Work from 10-6 agn.. Today was so sian.. I totally felt like i didnt slp the whole night yest although i did.. Yawn non stop in the day plus today was a v.quiet day at work, which make me feel like slping even more.. Chalet tmr, still contemplating if i shld go aft work, most likely i will though i noe im gonna be dead tired the next day.. Shall go slp now or else im gonna turn into a walking zombie soon..

Jia you Jocelyn See!!

2009-10-08T22:33:00.002+08:00

Today's my first day back at work.. It was alrite as i have alr been thru it before, but there are things that have change so i hv to learn it all over agn! haha.. one gd thing is, the job is not as tedious as it used to be before, which is good news for me! End work at 6pm today, tot i will end at 8 initially but it's nvr a bad thing to get off earlier.. Working tmr agn till 8pm.. Seems so no life right but at least i wun be working for very very long.. so i guess it will be okay! haha.. dun exactly noe my schedule yet except for sat half day n wed till 10pm.. Argh.. Wed's gonna be a long day)= HANG IN THERE JOCELYN SEE!! Gambatte everyone!!

2009-10-06T23:43:00.004+08:00

开心或不开心，地球还是会转，日子还是要过。为什么要让自己那么辛苦呢？我会学习用微笑面对一切，快快乐乐的度过每一天。

2009-10-01T00:54:00.005+08:00

to be exact, this feeling already came since three weeks ago from wed.. so i guess i have so called get used to it.. but actually there's this subconscious part which wld act up at times.. but i guess u're really better now.. like what we have talk about, better w/o me.. but whatever it is, all that happens wld always remain as our memories..

rest assure, i will nvr force things back till how they were.. i knew exactly that things arent possible anymore the moment u got out of that door.. ur mind n mine was set, right at that very moment.. all i noe is: strangers is not what i want at all..

2009-09-23T11:11:00.006+08:00

Specially dedicated to you!

We ended.. On a gd note i guess? At least there' s no hatred btwn us.. Although at the moment when u walk out of the door, it hurts real badly.. I still can feel the hug u gave me just now..it will still be there.. all the things we came across n went thru tgt will always remain n become wonderful memories that i will keep deep in my heart.. this is the first n last time i saw u let it out so thoroughly.. i will miss everything that have happened, everything that u hv gave me.. I will treasure it.. There's always a saying u will nvr noe how to treasure till u lose it.. I guess i understand it fully now.. Although i tried hard to think positively, hope that there's another solution n hope that there will be another chance.. But i noe u hv lost the courage to continue.. I kind of hope that u will understand that sentence now too.. No matter how i cant bear to let go, how i wish it was just a nightmare, it has came true.. If there was something i was able to do to make things better for us, it wld be to accept it n let go.. I noe u will feel more relief n u wun be so tired alr.. Im glad to noe that u still hv feelings for me, that's alr a comfort for me.. I will carry on with my life.. I promise i wun do anything silly n i will nvr do it.. I will try to stay strong.. U too take care n hope u will feel better soon! I LOVE YOU! guess it will be the last time i can say that outloud..

Romeo save me; they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

if only i can tell u that, the highlighted part..how i hope i can tell myself nth is impossible.. i reali want to tell u this.. but i guess it's nt possibe n on 2nd tot..wonder when u will ever see this..

Once u walk out of the door..i noe u cant continue with it anymore..
im sorry if i hurt u in the process n im sorry for affecting u till u lost the passion.. u get what i mean.. i still feel guilty over it.. i noe u must hv hurt alot or else u wldnt miss it..
I noe u didnt want things to end up this way either.. If there was another way, u wldnt choose to end it.. i didnt blame u n will nvr do.. Once more THANKS for everything n i truly mean it! Take care!

2009-09-22T01:24:00.003+08:00

i dare to say i attempted, i tried hard.. if putting a fullstop to will make u feel happier, i guess that's all i can do.. i dun wish for it to happen either.. it will be harder for me if anything is to happen n i guess i will fall real hard on this concrete ground we hv built.. can't blame any1 for things to go this way..or perhaps it was my temperament.. i dunno but i noe i still feel the same for u as before, i still do..

2009-09-18T17:27:00.004+08:00

chance upon a blog just now.. saw a sentence that reali make sense.. when love becomes a habit, it wldnt be called love anymore.. although one may reali wanna keep him/her by their side, but knowing that the other party arent truly happy, it wld be better to let go isnt it? This is what LOVE is truly about.. Felt touched when i read it.. It truly make sense (=

2009-09-16T23:12:00.003+08:00

i do feel the gap btwn us.. im sure u r aware of it too.. But i guess it's just for the moment, since we didnt get to spend much time tgt.. i noe i shld not feel sad now but instead believe n have faith in u.. That's exactly what i will do! Know u're going thru a busy period! hang on n gambatte my dear!! Loves(=

2009-09-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

feeling terrible now.. i had fever on sat- mon and now diahrroea or somethink that resembles it.. It's so terrible.. my stomach feels weak.. i watched my diet but it's still the same.. have no idea why.. argh.. suffering..

2009-09-10T00:18:00.001+08:00

i think what i need is more care n concern.. i need to noe u r there n i matters to u..

2009-08-22T01:08:00.002+08:00

Half a year may seems short if it's just a normal daily life with everyone.. But without u.. I think even 3 months is already quite long.. I am sure 7 mths wld be a great challenge to me.. Although.. it seems not possible now.. but i cld tell that u reali wish to go.. it may be possible if u keep persuading ya.. I know it wld be a reali great challenge to me.. Cos once again.. i will be here in this familiar plc, doing the same routine while u are away n this time so far away from me.. so many things may happen n things might change.. it feels weird just having the thought of it.. Whatever it is, i will stay strong.. For i dun want u to worry n all i want to see is u being happy! (=
No stress no stress no stress.. Cos i know i can do it de.. Dun wry!!

2009-08-02T12:28:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO!! I AM 18 ALREADY!! (=

Hehe.. I am so lazy to update till now.. As expected, the older i am, less wishes i got from ppl.. cos most wld simply forgot.. Haha.. It's okay! I've got my dear family n friends!! (= Let me 1st blog about saturday then suday..

Went to met up with dear on sat aftnoon.. went to chill out at Gloria Jeans.. Ate scone and drank i forgot what.. yum yum! played with his i-touch n chit chat till almost like 6plus 7.. then he said let's go for dinner.. initially dunno say go eat what ice cream thingy 1 lor.. then didnt in the end.. he brought me to suntec's basement n suggested Aston's instead.. i was wondering why then.. Then i saw the freaking long queue but weirdly, he pulled me to the middle of the queue.. That's when i saw my dear clique.. Sammi, tish, wenli n jmon! Was quite taken aback n all i did was laugh laugh n laugh.. Did suspect initially, but gave up after that.. Didnt wanna hold too high hopes ya.. haha.. After eating, we went to tiong park n chit chat.. our usual hangout venue.. Talk alot there.. Practically there were tons n tons of confession time.. Then they appeared with a small strawberry steam cake! n a pair of sunglasses n a tube of sweet! hahaha.. It was cute though.. ut got ants near it la.. haha.. fed them 1 mouth each.. Although it may seem v.simple but im contented alr.. Cos what's better than spending quality time with ur dear friends esp on ur birthday(= we stayed till aft 12 cos they wanted to be the 1st ones to wish me face to face.. lol.. so lame la.. Loads of text msges came in aft 12am.. Beeps and beeps.. Thanks everyone who wish me n rmb!! Ur wishes n thoughts are greatly appreciated! (However, after that i spent e next 2 hrs of my bdae on my rwps report.. how no life! haha.. went to slp aft dat!)

I aimed to sleep till 9 or 10am one lor.. but guess what.. i got woke up by sam at like 7.15am!! She told me that wenli lost her phone, suspect that it was left at tiong park yest.. She wanted to meet me like asap there.. I ook it for real n then i was like i go brush teeth n change 1st! then she was like NO! dunid brush teeth.. i was likw wth! so weird! then i hang up n went to brush.. Next moment.. i heard ppl knocking on my door n i heard their voices.. I open my door slightly n then i close it agn.. I look damn blur n gong la.. wore my specs than open n get out of my house so as not to wake my family up.. Then they started spraying party strings at me..so cold n sticky... eeee... hahaha.. n then there was strawberry cheesecake from swiss bake! i was so touched by their actions.. they aimed to make last night damn pathetic so i will be sad.. but haha.. obviously, i didnt expect much so i wasnt disappointed at all.. but everything was so sweet n thoughtful can! bdae song, wish making n cutting cake followed.. They came in after that while i was keeping the stuffs... They gave me some 8 more presents aft that.. Shirt, sweets, flowers n vase(lame jmon's idea).. then a ribbon tying kelvin ong! his the 10 and the 8 presents adds up to 18! so lame! but it was reali v.fun n sweet! love all of them!! tish n wenli had to go off first n then the 4 of us went to eat breakfast aft that.. More chit chat followed.. N when we're done.. It was MJ's videos time.. Non-stop lor.. From like 9 plus to like near 12.. his dance steps n songs are so cool.. Everyone had to go off after that.. sad to part, but was thankful for having all of them with me on that very morning.. I SIMPLY LOVE U GUYS!! (=

Continued with my report writing after that.. work work n work.. Later in the aftnoon... my mum, aunt n cousin went out.. was quite suspicious n surprised when my little cousin went with them cos she's damn lazy.. normally, if she was given a choice, she wld rather stay at home with me then to go out.. Haha.. During lunc time she was toking bout eating at laksa steamboat .. then i was like huh?! though i suspect something but didnt think aft that.. then reali.. the plan was to eat there.. N aft dinner, an icecream cake popped out.. so when they went out, they actualli went to reserve n buy cake! hahaha.. so thoughtful.. I LOVE THEM!! haha.. receive many angbaos, bracelets and a dress.. Love all the pressies that i received.. It was reali a memorable birthday for me.. I will tresure every bit of whatever happen n it will become my sweet memories(=

SO YEAH.. I HAVE GROWN UP!! Though it doesnt look like it.. Looks can be decieving ya?? HAHAHA..

2009-07-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

There's a reason why i prefer weekends.. it's the time where i can spend quality time with my dear family, take a break from sch and whatever's bugging me or stressing me.. It's friday again! Yeah for that.. Am going thru sumtink that i hvnt went thru before.. It doesnt happen all the times but whatever it is, it doesn't feel gd at all.. To understand the feelings, u will probably have to be in my shoes to understand.. Anyway, Thanks alot dear for trying to help me see thru it.. I will stay positive no matter what! (=

2009-07-08T23:20:00.002+08:00

Dislike being left alone.. Hate the feeling i am hving now.. I felt like i have lost the courage to continue believing.. i feel so alone sometimes.. don't ask me why or what happen.. i've yet to know the answer myself..

2009-05-19T23:45:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 33RD MONTHS TOGETHER MY DEAR!! (=

Glad that we have came this far together..

Words cant practically describe how I have felt all these months, and i think u noe how i feel..

I LOVE YOU!!

MUACKZ!!

(*current post only meant for HIM!* SORRY!)

2009-05-16T23:15:00.002+08:00

Another week have passed! hmm.. this week passed reali fast, totally different from what i expected.. N perhaps im getting more sensitive these days.. hahax.. some ppl will get what i mean.. And and and.. DEAR's BACK!! hahaha.. can tell he reali had loads of fun in batam that he wishes for an extend of it.. lol.. but if it extends im gonna like miss u for a few more days le.. glad that he's back with me(= i have learn to treasure what i hv even more now.. (= tmr's gonna be a busy day for me so tatas!!

2009-05-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

blogging here = writing a diary.. cos it's like a dead blog alr! haha.. hmm.. sometimes i feel like an abandon kid.. hahax.. hmm.. today was funny.. supposed to meet jh, siti n jerry at Suntec.. but when jerry called me to tell me whr they are.. my batt went flat! gosh.. i was like some lost child walking ard to find her mum.. hahax.. borrowed phones from 2 lady.. one was nice n friendly enuf to lend me hers.. but to no avail.. cos jerry didnt pick up.. i walk from FOX to build a bear workshop n then back at FOX agn; twice!! haha.. on the way back the 2nd time.. i tried to ask another lady to lend me her phone.. but she look so reluctant n suggested me to try the public phones.. which i hv alr tried! i told her i gt no phonecard n b4 i cld complete what i was saying.. she went like u can use coins.. i've oso tried alr! hahaha... den aft all those she said, she told me it's not convenient.. lol.. thanks anyway man! hahaha.. okie it was hilarious seriously... but eventually i manage to meet them outside watsons.. fated la.. we celebrated JIA HUI's BIRTHDAY n bought her some ballons, a happy birthday crown n oso a tiramisu! Interesting n fun day in summary!! Last but not least:

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY

JIA HUI

We Love You(=

2009-05-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

Empty will be the word that will describe me for this coming week! Sch, tutorials, projs, SA thingy etc will go on as per normal no doubt.. He wun be in S'pore for the whole wk till like sat cos of some sch trip.. Wonder whr else i can channel my happiness, unhappiness n stress to.. Although i've told myself not to be reliant.. but it's still not possible to not feel empty at the moment.. I need to adapt!

School has gone on n on for 3 weeks alr.. N there are more n more projs coming.. Dunno y.. I feel more n more tired of it.. It's a weird feeling of going to sch now compared to last yr.. Perhaps the work load is increasing n some things are still missing.. Hmm.. dun think any1 wld noe what im feeling now.. It's complicated!

Time to rest now! Tmr's yet another long day..
I need to stay strong.. I noe that..

The start of Year 2!

2009-04-22T22:24:00.003+08:00

School started 2 days ago.. n that's also the start of year 2.. hmm.. there's 21 of us in the class, 9 from my prev class DBA06, 8 from 07 and 4 from 12.. All of them seems quite nice ppl.. But currently, I am still not used to school yet.. I still cant get use to the change in class.. miss my dear jerry n yixiu.. miss the times we've spent tgt.. miss DBA06 too, cos no mttr wad, we hv spent a year tgt! I also cant get use to early classes n the tot of hving to mug is like so omg.. GAMBATTE to myself!! On the other hand, i hope this new class will be much more fun n exciting.. hope we can get to noe each other better n work well tgt!! Cheers!! Hohoho (=
As for now, hope i can stop feeling so sianz.. maybe i will feel better aft this week!! Thanks for those who hv been cheering me up by accompanying me esp my dearest.. Hehez (=

2009-04-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

school's starting tmr! n here i am, still hoping that the holidays will go on.. Hving mixed feelings now.. I am glad that i get to spend more time with my clique once sch starts.. but dreadful that lessons wld start at the same time! time tgt with him wld be much lesser too.. so much happen this wk.. fop, out with ex-clique etc.. i will blog bout it soon.. shall see how it wld be tmr.. will blog if i hv the time too.. (= nitez everyone! stay cheerful n hope there won't be monday blues.. SMILEZ!!

2009-03-03T23:04:00.003+08:00

Blog's been dead for 1 whole mth! Hohoho.. Hmm.. exams are finalli over now! and that spells the end for yr 1 of poly too.. Many of us mayb in diff class next yr alr.. but reali had fond memories with the class esp 11/20! hehez..hope most of us can still be in the same class.. *wishing real hard!*

Oh.. had cycling yest with siti, bryan n edward.. yi xiu met us for lunch den go off.. joey n edmund was supposed to meet us.. but in the end they decided to went for buffet at PP instead.. how nice of them lor! n reminder for all!: Stay away from edward when u're cycling! he can realli get on ur nerves sometimes.. hahax.. Class chalet's upcoming this thurs.. perhaps this wld be e last gathering b4 every1 goes MIA.. Hope all of us have tons n tons of fun(= hahax..

Have been prettybored this few days.. wonder wad i shld do.. guess im gonna head dwn to e library n get some books or sumtink to kill my time away.. It has been ages since i last touch a story bk.. Reading helps to kill time and chase my moodi-ness away..

Dunno what's wrong.. getting pretty annoyed withh myself dis few days.. i get upset easily.. guess my emo button's switched on.. Over many accumulated things.. hope things get better(=
thur's better come quick as im currently super bored.. tatas!! nites everyone!!

2009-01-30T18:48:00.004+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

boohoo!! am here to blog bout CNY this year n the chalet i went to on wed.. n b4 dat.. i hv to thnk siti for accompanying me to TM to buy my cny dress!! thks loads!! hees(=

Eve of CNY:
Came down from my cousins house to somewhr near vivo for reunion dinner.. we had laksa steamboat.. this time round we were arranged to seat upstairs whr the decorations n design of the plc gave me a big shock.. it was like a ballroom n so diff from the outlet dwnstairs.. had so much fun with my family as many comical events happen.. hehez.. played mahjong when we reached home while waitin for NEW YEAR to come.. hehez..

Day1:
same old routine.. 1st to grandma's hse earli in the aftnoon.. as usual.. had to entertain all the visitors dat i see every yr yet i dunno who exactly dey r.. hehez.. they hv been coming 1 aft another for many years alr.. waited for all of them to leave before we cld actuali start eating my so called lunch which was 4 oclock b then.. Aft greeting n everything.. went to my uncle's hse.. cldnt help but went dwn to cycle with my cousins cos the sight of BIKEs are simply irresistable.. hehez.. went back to play with my young cousins n had steamboat aft dat.. didnt eat much as i had little space left aft dat late lunch.. went dwn to the park agn to play "sparklers".. Tot of the most retarded way of playin dat day.. went back to join in the game of black jack.. was distracted by tv programmes v.soon.. hehez.. reached home damn late dat day but i had alot of fun joy n laughters!! (=

Day 2:
the standard place to go on day 2 of CNY.. my gu ma's house at eunos.. nth much reali... went dere for visiting.. had a reali nice lunch esp e traditional hakka chicken dish.. ended the day eith a few games of blackjack.. aft dat... cab home to be in time to see lion dance!! so cool.. but the sound effect was reali bombastic.. my ear hurt so much when my cousin tok to me aft that.. overall.. it was still a nice and interesting day!! wonder if dere's more visitings to come.. (=

Chalet:
Ended up with onli 3 of us stayin over.. Jerry, siti n I.. a little disappointed initially but in the end edward edmund n bryan came over to meet us oso.. i wanted to cycle v.badly but we ended up watching american's idol n playing taboo (girls v.s guys.. n we won with almost 2 times of their score.. :p)b4 e bbq.. didnt reali bbq e food ourselves excet maybe some prawns.. hehez.. hv to thk siti's sis family for everytink.. like 4 bbq-ing e food n every other thing.. (oh ya.. for e highlighters.. hahax..) edward left 1st.. then the 5 of us continued with the game.. super high can.. we started screaming n shouting out answers n laughed non-stop.. really had alot of fun though it was just e few of us.. e guys left at 10plus.. n e 3 of us played daidee, do crs, bathe n played some more card games.. went to slp onli at like 3 plus.. for me.. i fell aslp i tink ard 4 cos i wasnt tired yet.. but forced myself to slp when pictures of living dead dolls came flashing in my mind.. we woke up at ard 10 e nxt morning.. bathe n prepared to live.. by then it was alr 11plus.. but we cant be bothered.. went to eat BK before we finali came to school.. made our grand entrance to class like at 1.35 when the lesson enden at 2 odd.. felt so dumb.. hehez.. i want to hv another chalet with my poly mates!! Thks for all the fun dat dae!! love ya all!! (=

N dat's all for my updates.. will try to update more often.. hees.. tada!! (=

2009-01-19T15:30:00.002+08:00

My blog has been dead for days.. but im here to wish kelvin ong jun long a fun and exciting birthday!! Muackz!! Love ya!! U being happy is my greatest wish!! will try to revive my blog in a few days time okie?? hehez..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U

MY DEAREST BOYFRIEND!!

2008-11-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

YEAH YEAH!! HE's BACK AND IM GLAD!! (= n i do hope tmr come n go faster!! onli den i can finali let out a deep breath.. Hope everyone excel together!! (= gambatte!!

2008-11-22T00:44:00.003+08:00

hiya.. CRS is finali over.. i was damn stressed up over it can.. felt like screamin for e past few days.. tears rolled down uncontrollaby too.. dunno wad's e main reason but ya.. hahax.. perhaps i gt too much water inside my body ar.. haahx.. manage to crap all my points out.. hope it's gonna be okie.. pls pls!! (= i went online n waited.. but i tink he cldnt get access to the net.. i struggled to kip myself awake but e result is disappointin.. it's okie.. no 1 wish for it.. i cnt take it anymore le.. Tired!! hope to c u online tmr baby! Muackz!! Ai ni o!! Wan an!! I MISS U SUPER LOADS!! (=

2008-11-19T08:00:00.000+08:00

honey had gone overseas on mon.. cant bear to say goodbye can!! hv been quite restless dis few days.. perhaps dere's too much to do.. n e person whom i usuali tell everytink to is nt here!! BUCK UP JOCELYN SEE!! (= hope sun come quickly!! DO U NOE DAT U ARE MISSED?? n it's ALOT ALOT!! muackz!! HAPPY 27th mths together!! (=

2008-11-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

OMG!! OMG!! My baby gonna be overseas for A WEEK!! dis means TOTALLY NO COMMUNICATION for 1 WHOLE WEEK!! N sum more!! he's goin on e 17th!! i've to spend 19th tinkin of him!! I dread e arrival of dat day!! )= i feel so depressed!! wad m i gonna do?? sum1 tell me pls!! I HATE IT!! I WILL DEFINITELY MISS U MY DEAREST!!

2008-11-06T00:23:00.003+08:00

reali not in e mood today.. did fom proj until near 6.. n gt no time o catch hsm3 la.. postpone alot of times alr.. i wana catch it soon!! hahax.. realised i can get v.emo easily.. n i hate it.. affected by alot of tinks ard me.. if onli dere's a way for ppl to swop body's so dat we can understand hw e other person feel n dey will understand urs too..if onli.. DREAM ON! distract me pls.. hohoho.. im not makin sense here..guess i reali nid to slp le! tatas!! (=

somethings are easier said dat done.. i wish to move on n let go of it.. i noe those shld be left as memories.. but y did it come back to me once again? now.. i wish i can go back to e past..

2008-10-24T11:45:00.002+08:00

woo hoo!! im hvin my break nw.. a freakin 3hrs long break.. reali super sleepy can... but we still hv gems n pacc to attend to.. sianz la.. im basically rottin at e main library nw.. luckily i stilll hv siti n liling for company or else i will reali be freakin bored!! i've gt nth much to blog about actuali.. night expedition's tonite! hope i will make more new friends n enjoy myself(= my dearest wld be there too.. whee hee lookin 4ward to dat.. n weekends r comin.. n it's gonna be a long 1 dis time.. i reali feel lyk goin cyclin.. anyone wana join?? hahax.. (= shall stp here n continue rottin.. tatas!!

2008-10-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

hohoho.. realised my blog hv been left dead for quite awhile.. im here to revive it again(= okie la.. sch hv started near to 2 weeks alr.. i realised time passes reali fast nw adays..blink blink n it's like 2 weeks since hols ended.. n wrst of all.. projs n CAs are all chasing aft us alr.. hv to wrk real hard dis sem alr.. but lects r reali boring.. i must reali try my best to pay attention sia.. hehez..

n mth end's comin again.. i reali hate them.. it means less time for me n dear.. normali alr quite diff to mit le.. Oh.. hv i mention about our timetable dat's totally diff.. pratically dere's onli a day dat we start at e same tym la.. wad shit is dis.. )= i can tell he's puttin alot of effort to try meetin up wif me.. but sumtyms i juz hope things cld get back to normal.. but wad he say's true.. if he dun wrk.. who's gonna support him? haiz.. m i being selfish? i can say im reali learnin to look at things frm his pt of view.. but sumtyms i hv my own needs too.. i reali need u by my side esp when im down.. who else shld i look to for support? i juz need an teeny weeny xtra bit of sweetness too.. i can c dat comin alr.. n im glad.. i reali wan u to be by my side.. of course i noe.. nt every day, every min, every sec.. u noe wad i mean.. m i juz easily contented or sumtink? but i tink even if it's juz ur face or even ur back dat i c, i wld be glad alr.. silly me! can sum1 tell me wad to do? guess i juz hv to learn to be even more understanding.. For u, I'll try my best! i promise( =

i juz need to get dis out of me.. hmm.. i noe u're tryin real hard n im reali glad bout dat(= i promise i will learn to be more n more understanding n ti tie.. i mean it!! (= I reali LOVE u my dearest.. N dat's a fact dat will nvr change! Muackz!! I LOVE YOU!!

Being with u is the best thing that cld ever happen to me(= it's reali like a story.. hw we met n hw we dated.. unbelievable initially but nw all i want is to let dis wonderful story of ours continue! It's juz me n u together dat can make dis possible.. Gambatek!! (= Muackz!!

kachings(=

2008-10-01T22:51:00.002+08:00

opps.. realised it have been reali long since i hv blogged.. was reali too busy alr..spent most of my hols wrkin.. earn more kachings to save n do some shoppin oso ma.. hehez.. quite a eventful holiday dis time round.. 1st sem's result's out alr... didnt do dat well so hv to gambatek n buck up le.. had class chalet juz a wk ago.. was a reali imprompto 1.. or mayb cos i gt disconnected frm e wrld... hohohos.. had herat to heart chat wif e girls.. was a reali nice gatherin for us.. os i've not seen them for quite some time alr.. dere's aother chalet comin up.. lookin forward to it(= n i wana announced something!! I HATE MONTH END!! cos is e period of time i will miss him even more.. i wana mit u hubby!! baby i love u!!(=

our anniversary!

2008-09-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

hiya.. back from our mini campin.. hohoho.. camped at eas coast beach wif my dear honey on e 18th nite.. 1st time we managed to spend e 1st sec of our anniversary together.. hehez.. all i can describe is SWEET! we went dere in e late noon.. mananged to catch glimpse of sunset.. my aim to go dere was to c e sunrise.. hahax.. we ate mac for dinner.. chat our hearts out.. tok bout all our memories both gd n bad.. reali had a wonderful time together.. n hw blessed it is to see his face bside u, e first tink earli in e morning.. hehez.. at least for me it is.. muackz!! love u!! opps.. dis part is for him.. sry.. okie dat's all for nw.. i still gt wrk tmr.. tatas..

2008-08-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

i reali miss sec sch.. let's mit up soon class!! hahax.. holidays beta come soon(= 1 more ppr to go.. yipee!! hehez.. n today pacc cnt balance ar!! hope it will still be okie.. if nt krishna will be sad alr.. hahax.. okie jia you everyone!! 1 more ppr!! (=

*u're my addiction.. one dat i will nvr wish to let go..*

2008-08-20T17:13:00.005+08:00

tired is e wrd to describe me.. both physically n mentally..Im reali tired.. i cant take it anymore.. If i continue to keep it deep inside.. im gonna go mad! Is dere reali lesser n lesser topics btwn us anymore? Even if u cant tell.. im tryin to come up with stuffs to tok about.. but e atmosphere juz nw seems reali weird n in fact it bcame worst e harder i tried.. I reali tried my best.. but it takes 2 hands to clap, isnt it? Im reali tired of initiatin stuffs.. it feel so 1sided sumtyms.. i noe u r nt gd at showin ur feelings..but i reali hope dere can be some indication.. i cant read wad u tink deep inside.. i cant tell..but u noe i cant bear to let go.. i wld do anytink to maintain e relationship but yet u seem to be driftin further away frm mi.. M i gonna be left alone soon?

n i noe y i always drink so much wtr.. juz like a water tub.. cos water comes in easily n goes out easily.. i can laugh until i cry.. n tears come out like so freakin easily.. n i reali live up to my name.. i cried on e bus aft i left tiong.. i started to tink.. alot alot..

sry.. *emotional break-down*
i noe cryin cant solve any problems.. but it seems lyk e onli way to release all dis nw..

2008-08-16T21:30:00.005+08:00

hiya!! i juz came back from work not too long ago.. oh. i forgot to blog bout it.. yes yes i gt a job.. n im currently working at some gift shop at habourfront(= hmm.. today was quite a slack day.. didnt wrk for e full time todae.. cos.. i woke up late so 1 hr gone.. n boss decided to close earli so ya.. another hr off.. but but dats 2 hrs pay gone.. sobs! hahax.. hmm.. but considerin dat during e 9 hrs.. i slacked 3 hrs off cos dere was reali nth to do.. but every wrk day is a new experience for mi.. cos i kip learnin new things everytime(= that's wad kip mi goin!!
n as usual..i wanna shoutout something!! ( if u see my blog)
Joce: Hope to see u soon.. hehez.. I MISS U MY DEAREST!! MUACKZ!! AI NI!! No words can describe how much i love n miss u(=

n tatas everyone! Have an earli nite! (=

2008-08-11T17:30:00.005+08:00

yeah.. i practise my itab.. but dere's quite some stuffs i dunno still... dumb mi.. got to ask frenz tmr.. if nt wed itab die le.. hahax.. n dere's ec test tmr.. listenin test.. dun lyk sia.. but it will be e final test for the module.. so gambatek everyone!! (= i shall go rest nw.. hehez.. slacker(=
tatas!!

e concern u always had when i didnt reply or msg u n a simple msg frm u is all i wish for everyday nw.. (=